Burnt out...

Today has been absolutely miserable.. I know I shouldn't throw my life out there for people to read, but really I don't know where to vent to & I'm just tired. I know there are a lot of people out there who have it way worse off, but really at this point in time something has to give. Like seriously.

So my husband had his video conference with Walter Reed today and he said that he was just irritated with the lady the whole time. Yeah well that's normal for him, he's ALWAYS irritated with everyone, nothing new. He said that the look that she gave him, looked as if she didn't believe a word he said, so after about an hour and a half of video conferencing with her he called me to tell me how it went.. he was pissed off by then. Then his day just continued to go down hill. Of course he manages to always drag me down with him, except I have no one to vent to like he vents to me so I just soak it in and hold it in like I do best.

Once he's home from his wounded warrior therapy class he starts to sort the mail & he got 3 things, 1)VA, 2)Social Security Claims, 3) some other crap... Well VA says they need more things from him, we are supposed to find his rating out this month after 8 months on the MEB and for the VA to just NOW ask for more stuff is beyond me, seems rediculous, and then the Social Security people denied him his benefits although some fellow soldiers got their claims. So someone really pissed in his cheerio's today. He's so frustrated and angry (GOT TO LOVEEEE PTSD!!!) that he's already managed to scold the dog & our son who is sick, then he was joking around and talking to me but tapping his dinner plate and managed to break his plate in half & then got so pissed that he broke his plate he threw his fork & then threw a couch pillow and landed in my dinner plate.. now the pillow is ruined... I'm sick of this crap and not sure how much more of his anger and frustration I can handle. It's not like I want to walk away (sometimes I really do) but it's just frustrating for him. He's always getting the shit end of the stick and something has to give. I'm trying my best to be supportive but my heart aches for him, & I'm seriously worried about our future. If he doesn't make a high enough rating we won't have anywhere to live, & in this economy that's a lot on my shoulders since I'm the only one who can really work. Then I have to worry about how to get him to his appts & how to get myself to work.

Exhausted... frustrated... just want to let go..

Blog Update...

I've been slacking on posting recipes.. So what I will start doing is just blog daily life stuff (maybe not daily) and post a recipe along with it. As of right now I've been busy with my son's therapy schedule & my husbands MEB. My husband was recently diagnosed with severe depression, severe PTSD, Post concussive syndrome which is the aftermath of a TBI, & he also has degenerative disc disease of his back so This past 14 months has been a huge battle of trying to get him the proper medical care that he needs. Our 5 year old son has also had a battle of his own, and spent some time in a children's psychiatric center. Overall this will probably be my place to vent, but also provide what ever audience I have with new recipes. Thank your understanding.